Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
~ Psalm 73:25-26
Reading this verse this morning took me back to one of the most formative and foundational periods of time in my personal relationship with God. It was a time of incredible upheaval, emotional pain, and loss of much of what I had depended on for security. Leading up to and during this time, God had been speaking to my heart, asking again and again, "Am I enough?" At first I glibly answered, "Of course you are!" But He wasn't satisfied with a glib answer and continued to press. "Am I really enough? If you lose everything you depend on, am I enough? If your family turns against you, am I enough? If reputation is damaged, am I enough? If income, home, friendships, are insecure, am I enough?" I didn't like these questions but He gently insisted on answers. And as I examined each scenario carefully, I began to realize that it all depended on Him, and that if I lost all of that, but still had Him, the ultimate source of everything, I truly had enough. And I am so grateful for that time of deep examination because shortly after all these things went through massive change. There was hurt, there was deep pain, there was insecurity in almost every earthly sense. But, because, in His graciousness, He had already taken me through the process of understanding where my true foundation was, I was able to rest in the knowledge that He truly is enough. Yes, it was hard, but there was strength in knowing what He had already shown me. And He has not proven false. He was, He is, and He will be enough! I have largely come through that time, and I have seen how, when I depend on Him, He works in ways I could never imagine, and my life is rich in ways I would never have dreamed of. And even if all that should change again I will know - He is enough!
It is this knowledge that I carry with me into every day, including this day that has been so full of blessings, large and small.
Today started out as another rainy day but by this evening the rain had stopped and it looks like the rest of the week is going to be dry which makes me very happy! Our yard is like a swamp at the moment and I am so ready for it to dry out a bit so it's easier to work outside.
I bought some Orbees over the weekend and Michael added water to them so they would be ready to play with today. These little colorful orbs are a sensory delight - cool, wet, smooth, bouncy. My sensory seekers had a wonderful time with them. We also had to work very hard to handle them gently so they didn't bounce all over the place and send us on a wild chase around the kitchen.
Since we couldn't all play with the Orbees at once we there were other activities to keep us busy as well. Playdough, an ocean sensory bin, our chalk/dry erase easel, and blocks
And, of course, we worked in our workbooks.
One of the kids' favorite main dishes is macaroni and cheese with hotdogs diced up into it, and today seemed like a good day for a simple favorite. We also had peas and cantaloupe for lunch. For dinner this evening I made a stir fry with frozen vegetables and sausages.
Michael volunteered at the food pantry this afternoon. I had thought he was going to be gone this morning as well so hadn't prepared any school assignments for him. When his morning plans fell through, he did some decluttering in the playroom and then had some extra free time. This evening he put this stroller together for me. He is really good at putting things like this together. While I am looking over the instructions trying to find where a piece goes, he just snaps it in place and moves on.
And, just like that, another day has gone by and I am ready to relax with an audiobook and a few rounds of Mahjong on my phone while I listen. My current audiobook is War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy and I'm finding it much more interesting than I had expected too. I look forward each evening to finding out what is coming next.
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